Chapter 36.

What a year. A little wider and a little wiser, I'd say lol.

From the bottom of my heart, I can't begin to express how much love I feel from you all. I always get weird about my birthday, and as someone who loves a spotlight and stage, yet with all the butterflies, this is the one day I like to turn it all off. I love celebrating other people and occasions, so to receive the messages, voice notes, videos, calls, and gifts, I can't begin to tell you how much it all means to me. It got me thinking about a darker time in my life, when I was younger and in the closet, and how loud that inner voice was, you know that one that tells you how horrible you are, how you did it all wrong, how bad you look, how gay you sound, etc. I had no idea there would be a time I could compete with that voice. Be authentically me and challenge that voice, and eventually now laugh with that and at that voice. You have those voices, too, right? 😳😂LOL.

So for all of those friends from my past, who still created space for that kid, who was trying so hard to be different, and to everyone in-between to now, who have allowed me to be me, I want you to know how grateful I am for the kindness, friendship, and relationship we shared. It was not just lifesaving and healing, but it truly helped me create my best life. I love you all so much and can't wait for another milestone year of excruciatingly exhausting and hilariously exciting moments. I know this is a forever journey to love yourself, and I can say at 36, I am here for all of it.

*These ridiculous photos should really tell you how good I was at trying to be straight 🤣 #FindaPix #Friendster #MySpace #Downelink

#FBF circa 2002. The founding officers of Hilltop High School’s Pan- #Asian club.

I was President, @natofthisworld was Vice, @elwetter was Secretary, @christinenicolas was Treasurer. #AZN #AzNpRyDE #AsianAvenue #FindAPix

This was me on #Findapix. Circa 2004. Courtesy of Wayback Machine online.

PLB on #Findapix. Circa 2004! 
I hated that website at times but this post is just for the nostalgia purposes!

Ur cousins overseas ask u if u have a bf..who’s find-a-pix profile pic did u send them?


Follow @aznprydeonline
#starshots #glamourshots #aznpryde #azn #mallphotos #studiopix #mallphotography #findapix #spikedhair #90s #throwbackthursday #90sfashion #y2k #2000sfashion #00sfashion #aznfashion #2000s #asianmemes #azn #aznpride #aznprydeonline #asianpride

When u go through ur old #photobucket 😅😱 #10yearsago🙈




#motivationpic #bodygoals #digginoldpics #myspace #friendster #mirc #findapix #agesago #classic

#TBT on a Wednesday night to these type of photos 😂😂😂 You’re welcome!

#Rockstar #Highschool #Emo #Nextel #AZN #Myspace #Friendster #Xanga #FindAPix #LiveJournal #PureVolume #KazaaLite #Winamp #Limewire #AOL #Photobucket #Tumblr #AIM #StGens #Poly #Kennedy #Alemany #NorthridgeMall #PhotoMakers

My sis somehow opened her photobucket and sent me this lol #TBT to the max 😂 #collage of #myself #backinthedays #whodoesthat #youngeryears #myspacedefault #xanga #findapix

Damn. You’re welcome.

#TBT #MySpace #Friendster #Top8 #FindAPix #Xanga #Trumpet #HighSchool #MarchingBand #DrmCorp #DCI #BandGeek #SeniorPhoto #Emo #ThatHairTho #WhiteStudios #Terror #HXC #Throwdown #Forever #ForMyselfForMyFriendsForMyFamilyForever #GodsPlan

#TBT to the 2004 #LAUSDAllCityMarchingBand #RoseParade #TournamentOfRoses #HairOnPointTho #Trumpet #MarchingBand #BandGeek #InNOutTruck #TheMagicSchoolBus #MySpace #Xanga #FindAPix #Friendster #KazaaLite 😂😂😂

Just some old school hijinks with the crew this past weekend #findapix #fap #goingon20years

Wedding time! #wedding #findapix #fap #walnut #colima

I've known this guy for decades. Finally met his lovely fiancé.

Still, just know that SoCal > NorCal. 😬 #fap #findapix

Out with the boys #Gardena #fap #findapix

Met up with some old friends at wondercon :) #wondercon #wondercon2017 #findapix

hey. 📷: @jasonencite #selfie #selca #me #findapix #asianavenue #migente #blackplanet

It takes a village to raise a child.........and it takes a group-chat to dress a Perklander!!!!!

There's a method 2 our madness!!!! We all know Fashion Week can get a little hectic at times and yer sense of aesthetics can get skewed. Good thing chu can always count on yer bros 2 put ya in check wheneva ya at risk of runnin a fowl with sum faux-pas gear choices. Sumtims ya self esteem levels are deadass drained and ya gotta turn to yer homies 4 unconditional reassurance. POST A FUCKIN FIT, dawgs!!!!! Neva leave tha haus without first consulting yer homies. FACTS.
#YorN #YesOrNo #GearCrisis #AHelpingHand #Fashion #FashionWeek #PostAFit #ConstructiveCriticism #DontWorry #YouLookGreatBro #JustBuyIt #YouJustGotPaid #DarkKermit #DankKermit #BoysWillBeBoys #BoyTalk #TheSecretLifeOfBoys #WhatAreFriendsFor #GroupChat #HotOrNot #Findapix #RateMyProfessorDotCom #HardToBelieveThatWeAreStraight #WeCantBelieveItEitherSometimes #PerkEyeForTheStraightGuy #SKATEBOARDING #SKATEBOARDING #SKATEBOARDING
#TheGeorgeLopezShow

Reminiscing about the old days.
#56K #DialUp #AOL #YouGotMail #AIM #BuddyIcons #ASL #NetScape #Napster #FindAPix #Xanga #MySpace #WindowsXP

" #HatersWillSayItsFake " - @just.jaydon 📷 #wbw #LaJollaShores #ScrippsPier #Caiden_Jace #JadaChanel

Me and the birthday boy at the Summer Classic @vergelverceles #corona #happybirthday #birthday #findapix #fap

Out with crew after watching #warcraftmovie #dnb #daveandbusters #orange #blockoforange #wow #blizzard #warcraft #findapix #fap #amc

Every single person still in my life has a purpose. There is no deadweight.

I've known these guys now for about 15 years. #findapix #DnB #daveandbusters #oc #block #blockoforange

. kehaulani xShRtXiNdOxAzNxBoIx EXzacLEE grindgurl

14 years later, the only thing that has changed is our screen names #AIM #xanga #findapix #fams

#downelink #asianavenue #findapix #myspace #gam4gam

Can you believe this wedding took place in Minnesota??
Not in the mood 🥱😐
COD: Standoff Halloween × Bambhole is out now on YouTube link in bio ❤️🔥
🌸 🆃🅴 🅺🅾🅾🅿 🌸 Retro blik van Verkade ui de jaren 70.
“Chrome Dome” took the first #Bitwit Build Challenge gift card and now B’s Computers takes the second gift card!
Rare Omega Speedmasters - Omega Silver Snoopy, Speedmaster Schumacher, Speedmaster Apollo 50th Anniversary and Speedy Tuesday
#fillernoaghi #lipvolume #beautiful #esteticaavanzata #lipsfiller
#noaghi
Friends, today I gave Havok-Neuro pre-workout a try!
It took us 2.5 hrs to drive 111 miles to the #icebreakerroadrace in Great Falls MT today.
americanclassics - got me new pair of #ct70s love those since forever.
My Polynesian ,, Inspired Cheer Uniform -CHEERLEADING UNIFORM
Took a bit but we made it
#پاپریکا اعلا
پاپریکا یه طمع دهنده عالی به غذاست..
V for Vityaz ⚒ #KP9 #PP19 #Vityaz #RussianClone #9X19 #Subgun #Eotech #Zenitco
2021 rental season ending October 31 📣

HUGEE thank you to all our valued customers for making this past season a blast!
9 Hours, 32 Minutes to go 😁


Panchavati🌲Sita's Cave ⛰️ #panchavati #sitascave #sita #cave #nashik #nashikdiaries
#momprom #spprep #imgonnamissthis
Old bits swapped on to painted to look newer bits 🤣 all torqued up and bushings replaced.
The Boise Beard Guy reviews Burst toothbrush and whitening strips
🌱tofu
🌱rice noodles
🌱avocado
#vegan #eatvegan #govegan #plantbased #plantbasedtoddler #vegantoddler #veganblw #blw #blwandbeyond #vblw #vegankids
Vegetarian Day 2021
🥦1. Oktober🥦

Vegetarische Ernährung scheint momentan sehr im Trend zu liegen:
Saturday, October 30 & Sunday, October 31, 2021 | 11AM to 5PM
Fiquem ligadinhos em nossa coleção nova ❤️🚀.
#reelsloja #zaup #bone #moda #top #zaupbone #estilo #AL #masculino #maceio #kep #vermelho